So… this is just going to be a random babbling of comments, vents, and anything else that comes to mind while typing…
This weekend. What can I say about this weekend? It was a short-long weekend. You know those kind that at one moment is going so fast and then you are like why is it not bedtime yet?! Yea… those. I find myself trying to do so many things during the weekend. I always have a house to-do list, a me to-do list, and a function to-do list ready and waiting to be checked off and completed… Usually the only one that gets completed is the function one which includes places we have to go…
This weekend we had soccer, a girl scout party, a birthday party, and I had an event to attend Sunday. Well, lucky me, soccer and the girl scout party totally overlapped so I had to wish, pray, hell, sell a kidney in hopes that soccer would be cancelled. Thankfully, God and Mother Nature pulled through for me with some very nasty storms and rain which saved me from a complete meltdown over not being able to go to the girl scout party. Fist bump MN, I owe you one. I’ll go plant a tree once it’s not so hot! We’ve always been the “you made a commitment to a team” kind of peeps in our house so that’s what we said about not being able to skip soccer for the girl scout party…”Ella, I know you made a commitment to your Girl Scout troop BEFORE we signed up for soccer, but you made a commitment to this soccer team and there’s only 8 of you on the team and you not coming to a game would be letting your teammates down a bit.” I swear there should be a class in college called “Training for Kids and Adulting” because I have no idea how to justify Soccer over Girl Scouts or vice versa. It could tackle Team Commitments, Choices, Bedtime with Difficult Children, suggested reading for parenting, How to Sign Up For Kids Activities Online (because I swear it can be hard), How to Sneak Broccoli Into Everything, and other Adulting topics! I digress, BUT honestly, she made a commitment to BOTH so how do you decide? What do you do when you have to commitment things conflicting?! And there aren’t storms to cancel one or the other?!?! I was going to lose it if we had soccer so thank god we didn’t and I was spared that crazy crying sesh.
Soccer – Cancelled.
GS Party – Sky Zone.
*Mom did have a few minutes here to chat with other adults, while other little played with the iPhone. Judge me later. Or now, I don’t really care.
BDay Party – Neighborhood.
Fast Forward to husband coming home from work. Actually that happened while we were at Sky Zone. That morning I had done the dishes, picked up the living room, and obviously gotten the kids ready which included, even though it was cancelled, tracking down all soccer things because when you tell your kids to put things away, I swear they think you said “Please scatter your things around the house because I’d love to go on a Scavenger hunt later.” I also loaded my car with strollers, snacks, drinks, and children while it was pouring rain so my day has been a bit hectic thus far. Husband – I know you went to work and had to drive around town for about 5 hours… I get it, it’s hard. It’s hot, muggy, rainy… I get it, I do. You don’t have to tell me about it, because honestly I don’t care if you turned right onto Dean Rd. when you were supposed to turn left or if you had to do a 3 point turn at the end of a driveway because they didn’t have a turn around. I’m still working on my scavenger hunt because if the game weren’t cancelled, she would have been playing with one white sock and one blue and only one shin guard.
Also, when one child is gone after I’ve walked them to the birthday party since there was a break in the rain, and the other child is napping, this is the perfect time for you to rev up your household skills (small though they are) and help out. This is not the time to take a nap on the sofa. I know it’s the perfect rainy day and all kids are “occupied” so it does seem like the perfect time to lay and sleep and relax, but did you not see the poopy diaper that your little dog decided to pull out of the trash and trapse all over the loft? Or the dishes piling up in the sink? Oh wait, I did those when I got up this morning while I was making breakfast. What about the pile of laundry outside the laundry room? At least the towels?! No? What about the yard? It needs mowed. I guess I’ll give you a pass on this one… It’s raining so you can’t. What about the garage that’s insanely overrun with items you want to sell? What about toilets? They are getting kind of grimey… This is a task I know you can handle. Or your side of the bed? It looks like a college dorm! I mean, c’mon. At least throw the clothes on the bench at the end of the bed or in a basket… Most of your clothes seem to be washed at least 3x before you actually wear them or put them away.
But seriously, please just help. I’m tired too. I want to take a nap. I’m trying to better myself by eating healthier and working out, and honestly giving myself a few hours here and there AWAY from our kids! And you… But when I do these things, you give me guilt trips. Why do I get looks and comments when I want to go learn how to change a tire? Yes, I left you with two kids for three whole hours and I asked you to get groceries figured out. I didn’t really ask you to do anything else around the house because I knew it would be too much for you with having to keep track of 1 and 2 for that long. Then you order them and have the notifications sent to me WHILE I’m at my thing so I have to respond to the Shipt deliverer that we want non-generic tomato soup because I know you won’t eat it and any size of honey is ok! Grrr…. But the looks and the comments are really irritating… Moms have enough guilt, we don’t need more for wanting to go out with a group of friends for one drink? Or going to training to help lead your daughters girl scout troop? I literally watch our kids ALL THE TIME. I know that’s what I’m supposed to do as their parent, but you get all kinds of time off and they aren’t constantly saying “Daddy, Daddy, Daddy, Daddy, Daddy, Daddy” on and on and on….They are saying “Mommy” on repeat from the time they get up to the time their eyes finally can’t take it anymore! And I hate to say, from them, but it’s true! My one day off of the week, I get the girls… Your day off, we have a babysitter.
There are things I’d like to do that are not household related, but that do need some of my time. I’d like to be able to read before I go to bed…. But I don’t get to bed until 10 or 1030 because bedtime with our kids is painful. And when I finally get to bed and find you already laying there but there are things around the house to be done, makes me want to scream. I often think I’ll start a tally… A tally of the things I’ve done during the day… Things where I make no money, that exhaust my mind or body, that allow for something for you or the kids… If I did, I think you’d be surprised. Or maybe you wouldn’t and you just don’t care… That’s an issue that I’m not sure…
I often look around and think I just want to run away… I won’t, don’t worry. I’ll miss the kids. I’ll miss you. But even though I’d miss you guys, doesn’t mean that I couldn’t use some time away. My time away means less screaming, less stress, less anger towards you for all of the above. So hang up your damn phone, delete fortnight because you are not 12 and play with your kids and let me have a minute!
And sometimes, a vent sesh is necessary and this is how I get it all out…
Now to make this Tuesday awesome… I figured out my library membership includes HOOPLA digital and on there Girl Wash Your Face doesn’t have a 16 person wait list! AND it’s read to me! Hello Hoopla!